#19: love and the black and white party

In an earlier post, I explained how Sarah McLachlan's "Wintersong" Album reminds me of falling in love with Colt. Now, my 'falling in love' story ...

I went back and forth almost every day. My friends can confirm this. The reason? Well, there are several. One, is that I spent the first year and a half at OBU avoiding his existence. I thought he was cocky and I hated it. I would play music with him because he was/is good, but hang out and laugh at him and make him think he's awesome? No way. My friends and I would walk into eat in the ARA and would specifically say to them, "We are NOT sitting with Colt and his friends." (I know, it's rude, but it's okay ... he thought I was a brat. We're even.)

So, my feelings for him had made a complete 180 from freshman year to junior year. Another reason why I was so indecisive ... I wanted to like him so bad, but I also did not want to commit my heart to something that wouldn't happen. I wasn't in the mood to be disappointed and suffer heartbreak. But, who is? I remember telling several of my friends one day, "We look great together on paper, but I'm just not sure if it will work." That was my way of being totally cool and awesome and i-don't-really-care-what-happens-but-i-really-do.

I was frustrated because I really liked him and it was so strong. If you've been in love, you know. It's gut-wrenching loving someone and not really knowing if it is returned. I had heard that it was, but that's not the same as hearing it from his mouth.

One day, I was practicing in Ford Music Hall, where I spent a good majority of my college life. I heard a knock on the door and there he was. He fumbled through a LOT of words and in the process, turned them into a song, with interesting piano accompaniment, provided by him. In summary, he said, "I like you." It's one of those things that I thought right afterwards, "I wish I would have recorded this." I didn't say much, but I did say that I liked him as well. He left the room and I could hardly contain myself. I felt joy and excitement mixed with the anxiety of 'let's get this thing going!'

At this point, there were only a few weeks left before Christmas Break. My friends and I decided to do a little "Black and White" party, similar to the first episode of Laguna Beach, except not at all. :)

Our feast for the night. We put 4 different table/chair sets together from the apartments around us. It was quite the extravaganza.

And, here we all are.

I'm pretty sure this is our first picture together after having expressed our 'like' for each other. Maybe that's why we're glowing.

At the end of this little party, Colt took me outside and asked me on what would be our first date. It was happening!

So, we began falling in love in December of 2006 and I'd say, that's a pretty darn good memory.