(Don't worry, I was at a complete stop while taking this picture.)
It was the craziest fog I'd ever seen. So, so thick. The visibility was bad. I didn't know the light was green until I was practically under it and I didn't know where my exit was until the sign was directly in front of me. I was going really slow, trying to be safe, trying to stay extra alert, and just praying everyone else was doing the same.
At one point when I was at the top of the on ramp looking out over the rest of the highway, I saw absolutely nothing - only fog. I couldn't see my destination or even the direction I was heading. I just relied on what I knew to be true and took it one second at a time.
I thought about how true all of this is for my own life. Some days I don't necessarily see where I'm going, what I'm doing, or what my purpose is. Some days the unknown is just too much to be okay with. All I can do is rely on what I know and take it one day at a time.
Of course, this doesn't mean you don't set goals and plan things. I am the Queen of that. But it does mean I don't live in my future, I don't obsess over what might happen, and I don't worry about possible inconveniences or tragedies that aren't even realities.
This is actually one of the main tools I've had to use in managing my anxiety. I have to think about my present situation and not some made up one. I have to rely on what is true - my hope is in the Lord and the only things I really know are the things right in front of me. All I'm in control of are my responses and my thoughts. It's kind of a relief.
Once we settle into the thick fog, our lack of control actually becomes the source of our freedom.
"'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'" Jeremiah 29:11
Um, amen! This is exactly the way I have been feeling lately. We are facing some changes and it is so hard to make a decision because I can't see past the fog. But, it doesn't matter! God can see past the fog even if I can't :)ReplyDelete
So excited to see you soon!
Very true. And yes, I can't wait for next weekend!Delete