Wednesday, September 11, 2013

duke's first day of MDO

I have been MIA from blogging due a stomach bug that has taken over my household.  It has been g-r-o-s-s.  Thankfully, Colt and I were the only ones hit.  Duke seems to be just fine.  Anyway, I've been wanting to do a little recap of Duke's first day of Mother's Day Out last week, so here it goes.


For starters, I was pretty emotional already because the previous 3 out of the 4 weekends, we'd been out of town and Duke had been with grandparents.  I was genuinely missing my boy.  But I wasn't going to skip.  I said I would do this, I committed, and I didn't want to miss the first day.  I don't miss the first day of anything, dang it.  (Except that I missed the first day of MOMS group this Monday due to lots of throwing up.  I guess that's an acceptable reason though.)

I woke him up at 8:30 and tried to non-suspiciously get him to eat quickly.  But aren't the children so funny?  Duke always knows when I'm trying to get him to hurry and do something.  I tried really hard to play it cool.  Like, "Hey, Duke.  It's kind of time to eat breakfast, but it's okay if you don't want to yet.  I mean, I'm cool with whatever you choose.  But here it is.  It's on the table.  Oh, you want to take your time?  That's great, it's whatever.  Okay, let's think about trying a bite now.  EAT YOUR FOOD OR I'M GOING TO SHOVE IT IN YOUR MOUTH!"  I really didn't say that last part, but that's what my insides were screaming.  Breakfast took a while and we really needed to G-O.  Starting his first day of MDO with an empty stomach was not my ideal plan for the day, but that's pretty much what we were looking at.  After 6 bites of oatmeal and 1/4 of a banana, we called it good.

I tried to capture some sweet pictures full of smiles before we left that day, but Duke wasn't in the mood.   (It's okay, Duke.  Your mom doesn't really like to smile before 10:00 a.m. either.)



Luckily, we arrived to MDO early as planned.  What I didn't know is that you can't get into the rooms until 9:30 on the dot.  Why did I come early again??  So all of us, with our millions of kids, stood around, corralling toddlers from not pushing handicapped buttons on doors, running down hallways, etc.

Finally, doors opened.  We nervously walked down the hall until we arrived at Duke's room.  The teacher opened the door.  Duke walked in on his own with confidence and with his giraffe in hand. 

I backed away from the door and hung around until the rest of my friends were done dropping their kids off.  I was fine and unemotional until Kelsey choked up and said, "I just want them to like it."  Then it was over.  I fought back tears all the way to my car.

And then I bawled the whole way home.

Am I a bad mom?  Is it too early for him to do MDO?  What if he hates it?  What if he cries the whole time?  What if he doesn't eat?  What if he doesn't sleep?  Why should I take him to MDO if I'm perfectly capable of watching him at home?  Am I so terrible that I'm just dropping him off so I can go be by myself? 

All of these questions (and more) were swirling through my brain.  The only things that kept me from racing back to get him were 1 - This is going to be great for his social skills and development // 2 - This is going to be great for me to be able to teach a couple of lessons and get some things done. // 3 - We already paid for this so there's no way I'm flushing that money down the toilet.

When I gave birth to this crazy kid in October of 2011, I could've never imagined packing a lunch in his Star Wars lunchbox and watching him walk into a classroom of 2 year olds.  Never.

(P.S.  Thinking about kindergarten makes me want to throw up.)

But the time has come.  And although I would give just about anything to hold sweet baby Duke again for just 5 seconds, I love who he has become.  I love this age and I love his little personality.  Watching a little boy grow is such a gift.  Even if it means taking him to Mother's Day Out. :)

6 comments:

  1. This is so fun to read, because I work at MDO every Thursday at my church. It's interesting to hear the other side of things, because when the moms leave, we stay with the kids! Hopefully he has a great year!

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  2. Duke looks so darn grown-up in these pictures! I love that Duke knew you were trying to rush him - that doesn't surprise me at all. I can't imagine how weird it is to drop your kid off at "school" - I wonder how long it takes before it becomes normal?!

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  3. Oh Claire... You're precious and I'm so glad you're giving Duke his wings to fly (I hate to thihnk about kindergarten too and don't even get me started on letting Norah go overseas by herself like her crazy mom did...)Last week I was kinda skipping on the IG traffic of "1st day of MDO" because I am so jealous of you guys! I SO wish we had that here in Portland!! I know it's hard to do that the first time, but I have a feeling you will start loving it and when next summer comes around, you'll miss those Tuesday mornings of mommy time! :) Miss you.

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    1. Well, thanks for the encouragement. :) I think as I get more used to it, I'll start really loving it even more!

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  4. As my girlfriends and I say, "MDO keeps me from being on the news at night!" I feel like I'm a better mom when I go to pick up my boys after a day of being productive in my own way. And my boys love it, so it's a win/win!

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    1. I LOVE that saying. I'm stealing it. :) Because yes, I feel like after a good break, I'm a better, more focused mom. I know it's a win/win in my head, but I think it's just going to take a little adjusting to get used to it!

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