Tuesday, February 14, 2012

my two loves

Valentine's Day.  After typing "Valentine's" I read it over and over and now it sounds/looks really weird.  Do you ever do that?  I do it with the word "fork" a lot.

Anyway, some people love it, some people hate it, and some people couldn't care one bit about it (but that's usually a defense for hating it ... not all the time ... but sometimes).  Although it doesn't mean that Colt and I love each other more on this day, it is kind of fun to have a day out of the year where you go a little crazy for each other ... whether it's a bouquet of flowers, sweet note, romantic date, etc.

It was this week last year that I took a pregnancy test and realized it was positive.  Crazy to think that little peanut growing inside of me last year is now almost 4 months old.  I have a feeling that every Valentine's Day from now on I will not only think about my growing love for Colt, but that wonderful feeling of realizing for the first time that I would be someone's mom.

Before I had Duke, I remember people saying, "You have your love for your husband, but it's NOTHING like the love for your child."  I was always confused and annoyed by that.  Are you telling me I'm going to love my child more than my husband??  That's what it felt like anyway.  I didn't like the way that sounded.

Now, I realize they probably meant to say something more along the lines of, "You have your love for your husband, but the love for your child is something totally different."  I would agree with that.  My love for Duke is different than my love for Colt.  There is nothing like carrying a little human for 9 months, birthing him, and living life with him all day every day.  There is also nothing in the world like that moment when a boy reaches over to hold your hand for the first time and knowing that you will be in love with this person forever.

I am lucky to have two Valentines this year.  Both loves are different but both loves are overwhelming.  I am truly grateful today to be a wife to Colt and a mom to Duke. 

Happy Valentine's Day!

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